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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 06:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why did i forgive my father ?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Who then, do I blame.?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why do you have to be 18+ to go live on TikTok?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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She wouldn,t have been !

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

All the time i was locked up.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was very sick at this time too.

I was 9 years of age.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Would this be the day?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was seconnd youngest,

Where the ultimate outsiders.

As i do to all so called friends.?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I said to her

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I will be 64.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She married twice! .

And i lived it daily.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

When she asked me how she looked .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He knew the spot.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was in good health!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So, i spoilt her more .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Ive learnt so much.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

One cannot live in the past .

I never cut or harmed myself..

I could never make a relationship work though!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She found it foreign!.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Put me off passion for life!!

She loved him until the end.

My family never makes their pension either.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But it wasn’t much.

I write beautiful poetry .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

We were not on the streets..

(And it was in our own minds.)

I waited trembling.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

This is soul school!.

I was scared of men, in general

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im still living with it.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But, we were locked up after school.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I think the readers, may guess!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I don,t even have a pension.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Comes on , in middle age.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We all went to grammer schools

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My life is so biszare .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I have no regrets .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

What did i know ?

So whats the point in blame.

It was going to be , some day.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .