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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:06

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

This is soul school!.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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I will be 64.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why is there so much hate against black people?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But, we were locked up after school.

I was very sick at this time too.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She found it foreign!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why is there so much free porn on the internet?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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One cannot live in the past .

I was scared of men, in general

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

When does a woman know she is cumming?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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Ive learnt so much.

I was seconnd youngest,

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She loved him until the end.

Would this be the day?

Im still living with it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I never cut or harmed myself..

Comes on , in middle age.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But it wasn’t much.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I said to her

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I don,t even have a pension.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

It was going to be , some day.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I write beautiful poetry .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My life is so biszare .

So whats the point in blame.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But ive been too sick for many years..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why did i forgive my father ?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I think the readers, may guess!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My family never makes their pension either.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He resisted the act ,that day.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She was in good health!

She wouldn,t have been !

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

All the time i was locked up.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She married twice! .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We all went to grammer schools

I was 9 years of age.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Put me off passion for life!!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I waited trembling.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

(And it was in our own minds.)

I could never make a relationship work though!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And i lived it daily.

He knew the spot.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We were not on the streets..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Who then, do I blame.?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I have no regrets .

What did i know ?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So, i spoilt her more .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

When she asked me how she looked .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.